Pregnancy the second time around.. and some pictures...

It's so odd to me how different this pregnancy is in comparison to my pregnancy with Chloie. In all aspects, my body is reacting different, I'm reacting different, Ben is reacting different, even my Dr is acting different...

When I found out I was pregnant with Chloie I was shocked (to say the least). I was not at all ready to be a mom and didn't think that it would ever happen on accident.
With Baby #2 I wasn't at all shocked to find out I was pregnant, although I was a little overwhelmed by the fact that it happened so quickly.

I was really sick through my pregnancy with Chloie and was on medication for it the entire time. But I haven't been sick at all this time.

I was exhausted with Chloie but I've felt normal (up til this past week) this time.

I didn't clean the house, I didn't want to do crafts, I wasn't super active, I was depressed and super emotional! This time I can't seem to stop cleaning and crafting, I feel awful if I don't work out, I'm actually pretty happy and my emotions aren't nearly as out of whack this time.

I did not have any problems gaining weight last time but I'm finding it difficult to gain this time. (which I'm ok with but my Dr... well he's not to happy about it...).

Ben was... I'm gonna go ahead and say "absent" for the majority of my pregnancy with Chloie ( I don't think either of us really knew how to react) and this time he wants to feel the baby move, asks me about my Dr appointments, talks about baby names, and is planning on taking a few days off work to be home with me and the girls (which shouldn't be to hard since she is due right before Christmas). Which he didn't do the last time, mainly because he was working and doing fire academy full time.

This time we are ready and the more I see Chloie interact with other babies (like our nieces, Hadlee and Rylee, and our new "nephew" Oliver) the more excited we are to have this new little girl here. Chloie is going to be the best big sister!

I pulled out all of Chloie's newborn and 0-3 month clothes last week just trying to get ready for the baby and trying to entertain myself. I can't believe my Chloie was EVER that tiny, We brought her home in a preemie out fit that looks to little for even her dolls! It is going to be so odd to hold and snuggle a new baby, I've gotten so used to holding and snuggling my Chloie! She is going to seem SO BIG!

I just wanted to share a couple of pictures of Chloie when she was first born and Chloie now... It is such a HUGE difference!

Chloie the day she was born!

Chloie and I our first day home.

Ben and 3 day old Chloie.

Chloie last week!

Chloie and I!

Chloie and Ben!

She doesn't even look like the same baby. Her hair color and eye color have changed and she has tripled in size! I seriously could not love her more and I can't wait to have her baby sister here!

Night terrors.

For those of you who have never experienced some one having a night terror, you are in for a treat!
I first heard about night terrors from my aunt Kerryne who's son has had night terrors since he was about Chloie's age. They are terrifying.
It's not your average night mare that's for sure! It's like a nightmare being acted out... If  you have seen an excorsist type movie that's about what it's like... It's SCARY!
Chloie started having these a few months ago, she will wake up in the middle of the night just screaming bloody murder and throwing herself around the worst part is she looks completely awake, just really dazed. If we touch her it makes it worse, if we try to calm her down with well... anything, it makes it worse. All we can do is talk to her calmly (try not to laugh, or in my case cry, at times) and make sure she doesn't hurt herself. There is no way to prevent them from happening, or stop them while they are happening. So we wait it out then when she finally snaps out of it its bubble baths and otter-pops that help her go back to sleep calmly.
So 2-4 times a week Ben and I (or sometimes just it's just me when Ben's working) are up for 2-3 hours just trying to help her through these then tack on another hour of calming her down afterwards. (So if I ever seem tiered or slightly more irritable, this is why)
Yesterday we got to experience one during nap time (which was a first) so I got some video of it for the first time.

So here is one of the clips I got of her (this one lasted about an hour and a half), mind you this is NOT a temper tantrum and she is NOT awake. This is NOT how my child acts normally.

Fun stuff, huh? Bet you are all jealous that your child doesn't do this! Ha!

A little ranting and raving with a smile! :)

WARNING!!! : This post contains negative feelings. Proceed with caution. Note that there is some underlying sarcasm in the majority of this. :)

And mostly I am hoping to get out my (possibly hormone rage induced) feelings while making someone some where laugh. So keep that in mind as you read....

Ha...

Do you ever feel like you get an abundance of unwanted advice from just about everyone you run into?
I do.
Especially lately, I don't know what it is about being pregnant with an almost two year old that screams "some one please tell me everything I'm doing wrong and what I should be doing to be as amazing as you". also tell me all your horror stories about labor and delivery because, ya know, I haven't been through it before or anything. AND PRETTY PLEASE point out constantly how young I am to be a mom, much less married. I am aware of my age (contrary to popular belief I am NOT an idiot) (bet your shocked). I just figured out what I wanted for my life, and found a man who wants the same for his life, a little earlier on in life  then some other people have (and to be honest earlier then I thought I would personally). Sorry if that bothers you. :)
I just don't understand people. I'm usually one to keep my opinions to myself, unless provoked (I may be feeling a little provoked at the moment, by the way). So I don't get why some people feel like everyone needs to hear their opinions all of the time? Usually when people give me their unsolicited advice and opinions I'm generally nodding (to be polite) and thinking "If I wanted to hear any of this I would have asked, and the fact that your forcing this lecture on me makes me;  for 1: very uncomfortable and for 2: not want to be around you for even short periods of time ever again."
But I will smile and nod and say things like "Oh I never would have thought of that" when I have ( or I've researched and asked my Dr. about and decided against it), or things like "Oh thank you so much for all of your advice!" when I really couldn't care less, but if your that into it I will listen to be nice. :)

Then I find my self complaining about all of this to my husband (who not only finds them annoying as well but tends to find me annoying for being annoyed. fun.) or my best friend, Kenzie. Who generally agree's with me (which is possibly just because she knows that if she doesn't I will continue to talk about it until she does) and waits 'til I'm done ranting and raving about stupid people then offers me Cheesecake or candy to make me feel better. LOVE HER! haha.

I would just like to say that I know I am not a perfect mother, wife, sister, daughter, niece, cousin,  friend, sister-in-law, or daughter-in-law.  BUT I am doing the best I can. I cannot please everyone all of the time. I am nothing more then an average person, I do not preform magic tricks, I don't know everything, and I (surprisingly) am not perfect.
I am okay with being less then perfect. I am okay with being just a good mom, not a super mom. I'm okay with being a good wife, not a perfect wife. And I will give to everyone else (sisters, brothers, parents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends)  everything that I can. And that will just have to be enough.
Until I'm struck be lighting or I touch some magic moon rock that gives me super powers. :) (it will totally happen one day I'm sure)

Now that I've gotten that off my chest I feel much better and am fully prepared to pretend to care when I get more advice. (and since we are going to the grocery store I'm guessing it will be happening soon, gotta love random strangers at walmart!)


Thanks for reading I hope that some one got a good laugh! If you didn't, you obviously did not read this correctly in my sarcastic tone. Try again. :)